I’ve finally finished writing my schedule. More accurately, I’ve finally got to doing it. I was so lazy to do it because I told myself that as soon as I do, I’ll have to be accountable to it. For the past few months, my phone would notify me about something I have on my schedule, but I would just dismiss it because it’s not relevant to me. It was relevant for last semester. This semester is different and all I have to do is just ignore my schedule and do whatever I want.
The thing is that I’m not even being productive with my time: an episode here, Facebook browsing there, a tinder swiping session, etc. I would’ve been happy if my time was used to learn a new skill like bouldering, practice my dancing, go out and meet new people, and stud for school, but I’m not doing anything of the sort. I’m just sticking to the routine. I’m going to class, going to some quiz, giving a dance class and that’s it.
I’ve stopped following my schedule 2 years ago. I used to have it for 3 years straight. My life was so fucking productive. Even thought it was mostly studying for school, I would go to sleep feeling like I got closer to my goal of having my degree and finishing as the best student of my year. And when I actually did, I was so happy. Felt so satisfied that I set a goal to myself and could attain it. Made me feel like I’m a detective in a movie tracking a serial killers for years, and finally get him to justice! Such a rewarding feeling.
As I was building my schedule, I felt like I’m in the Interstellar movie. I was feeling like I was reorganizing my time by blocks, as if it was a simple matrix that I could take one activity move it to somewhere else and done! My life is going to take a new direction, a new “timeline.”
The best thing about following a schedule is that I started value my time more. Firstly, my time was so important to me. I cared about it, and made people know it. If I would’ve made plan with someone, and he would be late, I would let him know that my time isn’t something you can screw around with when I’m dedicating time for him instead of doing something else. The thing is that if I have something scheduled like studying, working out, etc., and I’d rather meet my friends because I haven’t seen them in a long time or because they need me, it would piss me off if my time wasn’t spent properly (I.e. being bored), so it would motivate me to take the lead and make it better by leading the conversation and by thinking about something fun to do.
Secondly, It would keep me accountable and self-disciplined in other areas in my life. For example, I haven’t fapped nor watched porn for 6 months. Well, actually I don’t have schedule right now, but I since I’m self-disciplined enough, I managed not to fap or watch porn for a year and 8 months. I feel so accomplished by doing so. I shouldn’t do it myself. It’s not healthy not functional. It’s like eating an ice cream instead eating a proper meal. While It might meet my need for food, it’s not how I should eat. What every person needs to meet his sexual needs is a partner. Someone they can have sex with on a daily basis. Now, since I can’t have it, I’ll get into the specific in another post, then I won’t fap till I find a girl that will help me with it.
Lastly, And that might be the best feeling about having a schedule, My days get longer and I feel like I can do so much more for the same amount of time. 30 seconds become 5 minutes, and I get things done. One the one hand is because I have the time limitation, then I’m working more efficiently, and on the other, I don’t waste my time on some bullshit around the activity: if know that I have a 10 minutes break during a studying session, then I’m not going to stall and open Facebook. I’d rather do something I like (e.g. talk to a friend, draw, create some music, etc.). Therefore, I’m more efficient, and I don’t have the feeling that I’m running out of time. I can write a post in 20 minutes when I’m focused, as opposed to 2 hours when I’m all over the place.
Well, this post was a wake-up call and a reminder of why I like having a schedule. Hopefully I’ll use it every time I feel like I have no motivation to follow my schedule. It’ll be like my motivation speech. Instead of watching some motivational speaker videos on youtube, I’ll read this, and get back on track.